I have to start this post by saying thank you to Devin Watson for his creativity and willingness to work with me. The design of this blog is absolutely perfect!
It’s been a while since I’ve experienced the mix of emotions I’ve felt over the past month or two. So much that has happened…too much to wrap my head around all at once…and with not much time left to grieve, to feel sad, to cry, to be angry, I feel myself slipping into this shell. I’m not living, I’m merely surviving day to day…going back to habits and behaviors from my past, allowing myself to think too much, feel the fear of those thoughts, and worry about what or where they might take me. I’m lost. I’m scared. I’m sad. And I’m trying to pick up the pieces.
This is where I’d like to say I know how to do this. I’ve been here before. I’ve got it all under control. Ha! This is also where I’d insert an inspirational quote, with an image, for a friend. I’d share my experiences and offer advice. But I know that won’t help me right now because I’ve pinned many “good reminders” lately and saved lots of quotes from facebook to my phone. Yep, still here!
I keep telling myself this is part of the plan. I don’t have to understand it right now, I just have to get through it…which makes me think about “not waiting for the storm to pass, but learning how to dance in the rain”. That’s all fine and dandy. I like to dance in the rain…but right now, I’m so lost, in such a hurry to get someplace other than here, I don’t even notice it’s raining. Trusting the process…not easy. Being patient…even harder, especially in the dark.
So…I decided the best thing to do was to start writing about it. Last time I was here, well not here, here, but here as in feeling this way, I started blogging about my life…sharing my story. And I figure if I want to empower young women to grow on their journey, they may as well get to know me and the journey I am on too.
Which brings me to the last paragraph of this post. The idea for this blog is to encourage and empower women of all ages to be who we are always. To accomplish this, I’ll be bringing you some of my life’s funniest, scariest, grandest moments, along with sharing lessons I’ve learned (or I’m still learning) and links to information on these ‘blooming topics’. Hope you will follow along, ask questions, share your thoughts, or even request a topic or storyline.
Already seeing a glimmer of light…