On Tuesday, I will be heading to see a new cardiologist for a second opinion on my heart condition. I am trying to stay postive and not worry, but I have to admit I am starting to feel the jitters. The unknown is so scary to me. I let my mind wander, I think of worst case scenarios, I feel nervous and sad. I let my emotions take over. I cry. I become irritable and controlling. It seems all of the changes I've made disappear, and my life starts spinning out of control.
NOT THIS TIME!
For now, I am going to remind myself that it is perfectly normal to feel scared. I am going to allow myself to feel those emotions, prepare for the visit, and lean on friends and family for support, hope, and peace. No one knows what their future holds. I will embrace today; learn from yesterday; hope for tomorrow. And pray that God will continue to lead me on this journey...
NOT THIS TIME!
For now, I am going to remind myself that it is perfectly normal to feel scared. I am going to allow myself to feel those emotions, prepare for the visit, and lean on friends and family for support, hope, and peace. No one knows what their future holds. I will embrace today; learn from yesterday; hope for tomorrow. And pray that God will continue to lead me on this journey...