No one is in control of your happiness but you; therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change.
~Barbara De Angelis

Control (as defined in webster): to exercise influence over; to hold in restraint; to have power over

Control is something that used to occupy my thoughts, my feelings, my actions, my reactions, special moments, and well, just about everything, everyday.  I wanted so badly for things to go my way, for others to listen and respect me, for the day to turn out just as I had planned.  And when it didn't, I would panic.  This wasn't the only control that was making me miserable either. I had also let others control me, my thoughts, my life.  It was a constant battle that made me feel a range of emotions daily; fear, panic, shame, disappointment, sadness, but most of all anger.  When I started on this journey, I was a serious hot mess!  I had given up on myself, my dreams, my hopes, my life.  All because of this one word: CONTROL.  It is a scary word by definition, one that took me a long time to understand, acknowledge, and accept.  And though I believe I am finally overcoming its grip on me, there are still days I catch glimpses of it in my life.  Today was one of them. So, this post has been written to remind me:
"I cannot always control what goes on outside. But I can always control what goes on inside."  ~Wayne Dyer
Don't panic, Don't push back, Don't get angry.  Instead of letting the entire day be ruined by one little word; smile, enjoy the moment, thank God for the beautiful day, for Caylee and Chad.  Then relax, take a deep breath, and say a prayer for those who are struggling with that little word too...

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take; But by the moments that take our breath away" ~Unknown